Thursday, March 28, 2013
Bravery And Consequence
And usually, I shrug my shoulders and bask in the glow of approval.
Lately, however, I feel more like a coward. I hunker down in the exam room and shield my psyche from the initial reaction. Brows furrow and words come out faster than mouths can speak.
You're leaving the practice?
Wrinkles become smooth as I explain the new paradigm. What's there not to like: less patients, home visits, more proactive care. Once again my nerves unwind, yet I know the moment has come. The tone changes as we get to the yearly fee. While it doesn't phase some, I can see the gulf form in others. Eyes turn dead and dart towards the ceiling, expressions become frustrated or just plain angry. They know they're being left.
I didn't have to do it this way. I didn't have to start this early. I could have just kept my mouth shut and waited to send a letter. But that wouldn't be me.
I will stand before each and every patient. I will tell them face to face. I will accept their reactions whether joy or disgust, because I owe it to them.
I made this decision willingly,
I won't cower from the consequences.
Posted by Jordan Grumet at 5:52 PM