Saturday, March 16, 2013
Doctoring Is An Act Of Love
In what other relationship do we directly put ourselves in a position of long term responsibility regarding others physical and emotional well being: parents, children, spouse, good friends?
This covenant has it's privileges. You become a grain in the sand of people's lives. Membership is deep and enduring. Very few are lucky enough to wake up every morning with a sense of meaning and purpose. In the end, this is what drives people to the profession. No amount of money, power, or ease can replace human connectedness.
But it's hard. Not hard like bench pressing two hundred pounds. Hard like carrying a sand bag on your shoulders for the rest of your life. Your neck often bends and your posture stoops forward. When a patient is lost, one would think that the burden is lightened, usually the opposite is true. And there are always new patients requiring you to forfeit a small part of yourself.
There is often less to go around for others. Your family and friends, your children, sometimes only get the scraps. The pieces are what's left at the end of the day. Your loved ones have also unwittingly made a covenant with every patient that walks through your door.
If you understand this. If you see this. Then it is no great surprise the turbulence most physicians are now feeling.
The filling of forms. The clicking of clicks. The reams of checklists, rules and regulations.
It's turning this great act of love into a job.
A clerical, emotionless, empty job.
Posted by Jordan Grumet at 4:57 AM